'Revelations in the middle of the night... Yeah, that's really conducive to a good nights sleep! And I'm not talking about reading biblical prophecy either. Sometimes you give things your best shot. Realising that it wasn't you that has the problem is a revelation in and of itself. When you've tried your best and that best isn't good enough. When you've laid your cards on the table and yet you still don't make breakthroughs. When everything becomes a battle. You know then its time to move on.
I am grateful for all the opportunities for learning that I have received so far in this life, you have given me colour, added depth to my soul and made me the woman I am today. Thank you.'
I am grateful for all the opportunities for learning that I have received so far in this life, you have given me colour, added depth to my soul and made me the woman I am today. Thank you.'
So, the middle of the night happened. Not so much a 'Long Dark Night of the Soul' type of thing, more like a 'Wake up and smell the coffee again' kind of thing. Its followed various conversations with assorted people recently. Some of these people are closer than others, receiving information from various sources, including a tarot reading I did for myself.
So the revelations were coming in thick and fast. Personal ones, the kind that appear in the middle of the night and keep you awake. I'll be accused of 'thinking too much' no doubt. But its what I do. I receive information and I process it, if it becomes easier to understand as a result, then great! If I can share it with people, then great. They don't have to take any notice of it.
One of the themes for me in recent months is "Speak your truth". I have spent many years not speaking my truth, worried about what people will say, concerned that I might look foolish. I've now reached the point that if I have something to say, then I'll say it. It follows a conversation I had recently with someone who basically said "Children are great, they just say what's on their mind, no filters, no fear of what people will say" and its true. If we have a truth in our heart, whether it be a personal truth, or a greater/wider truth acknowledged by many, if its a truth for us, then it resonates. Agreed we can use tact and decorum, but ultimately we have to speak our truth. All of us need to be honest with ourselves about who we are, what we enjoy, what we dislike, what really really makes us tick. If we don't we're living in a state of denial. Denial of who we are at the core of our being. If you are truly being yourself, then the right people will like you, the wrong people, people who don't resonate with you will fall by the wayside. You will naturally attract the right people for you at that time, with whom you can learn life's lessons.
Sometimes you give things your best shot. You try to do what you consider is right and there's no harm in that. You try to appease people, sooth their egos and construct for yourself an untrue state of being. Because you are technically compromising who you are. Compromising that very honest self. You might give something your best shot and receive rewards and indicators that you are definitely on the right track. You'll receive the feedback from the people around you that you really are doing the right thing. If you are doing something that compromises that very honest true self, then ultimately you are not living in your own being, you are perhaps compromising too much. I'm not saying don't compromise, just be aware that when you compromise, you might be coming from a place that is alien to your true self.
One of the themes for me in recent months is "Speak your truth". I have spent many years not speaking my truth, worried about what people will say, concerned that I might look foolish. I've now reached the point that if I have something to say, then I'll say it. It follows a conversation I had recently with someone who basically said "Children are great, they just say what's on their mind, no filters, no fear of what people will say" and its true. If we have a truth in our heart, whether it be a personal truth, or a greater/wider truth acknowledged by many, if its a truth for us, then it resonates. Agreed we can use tact and decorum, but ultimately we have to speak our truth. All of us need to be honest with ourselves about who we are, what we enjoy, what we dislike, what really really makes us tick. If we don't we're living in a state of denial. Denial of who we are at the core of our being. If you are truly being yourself, then the right people will like you, the wrong people, people who don't resonate with you will fall by the wayside. You will naturally attract the right people for you at that time, with whom you can learn life's lessons.
Sometimes you give things your best shot. You try to do what you consider is right and there's no harm in that. You try to appease people, sooth their egos and construct for yourself an untrue state of being. Because you are technically compromising who you are. Compromising that very honest self. You might give something your best shot and receive rewards and indicators that you are definitely on the right track. You'll receive the feedback from the people around you that you really are doing the right thing. If you are doing something that compromises that very honest true self, then ultimately you are not living in your own being, you are perhaps compromising too much. I'm not saying don't compromise, just be aware that when you compromise, you might be coming from a place that is alien to your true self.
When you get to the stage of 'realising that it wasn't you with the problem' you are making a breakthrough. I'm not suggesting that we be self righteous, but rather, sometimes people construct for themselves a brick wall, we can either help that person take that wall down and they'll be glad of the help, or we leave it in place. People will always have opinions and problems with the opinions of others, its human nature, but do we have to take on those problems as our own? Do we have to take that brick wall into our being. The baggage we all carry through life can and should be left at the door when we enter into relationship with someone. Instead we usually bring it all in and dump it at the door with an attitude of "Here's my shit.. deal with it because I can't be bothered". To be in our true self we are aware of the baggage we have and we don't burden others with it. If we feel that something is too painful, we can choose to deal with it and move on, or we can choose to suffer through our attatchment. Personally I recommend moving on, its immensely liberating.
The laying of the cards on the table, is the being true to oneself. Of saying to others, 'this is me, take it or leave it'. You can't change the opinions of others, or change others and their baggage. You can only show people what you do with yours. You can easily say "I'm me, get over it" and can alienate ourselves from others by being arrogant. I'm not suggesting arrogance, rather being honest with the self again about what you truly want and not being afraid to say "I want this for my life, or that" If something doesn't resonate.. move on! Don't feel compelled to stay with something if it isn't working once you've laid your cards on the table. If it doesn't feel right, don't do it. If you're with someone and you're not being your true self, don't stay for the sake of the other person. Set them free. Don't spend years regretting, set yourself free and be yourself. You will naturally attract the right people to you.
Things are a battle at times. Sometimes a good argument can help to clear the air. But if we were all honest and upfront anyway, then there would be no need to battle. It would be a simple discussion, points of view aired and some headway, hopefully, made, or at least agreeing to disagree. When we go into battle, we're expecting to get hurt, we can hurt others by what we say, and get hurt by the retaliation.
Each and every person we meet provides opportunities for learning. They might reflect aspects of our personality that we don't like. Maybe they'll show us different ways of being that might appeal to us. Whatever happens when you're interacting with others will have an effect on you, its up to you how you deal with it. You can choose to be affected in a good way and learn from the experience, or not. If you choose not to learn, then the same things will present themselves until you learn that really there is a lesson in this.
Change in life is inevitable. We each go through life and have to deal with changes when they happen. Some of the changes are good, some are perhaps not so good, but again the change will bring lessons to learn and grow from.
So, in conclusion. Be true to yourself, be honest with yourself and others about everything. Sometimes the truth hurts, but its OK and everything will be OK. You'll grow as a person even if something feels so painful that you don't think you'll get through. Fact is you'll get through and you'll be a better person for it.
Change in life is inevitable. We each go through life and have to deal with changes when they happen. Some of the changes are good, some are perhaps not so good, but again the change will bring lessons to learn and grow from.
So, in conclusion. Be true to yourself, be honest with yourself and others about everything. Sometimes the truth hurts, but its OK and everything will be OK. You'll grow as a person even if something feels so painful that you don't think you'll get through. Fact is you'll get through and you'll be a better person for it.
Thank you for reading.
